The transformation in my personal well being gave me immediate drive to <do something>.
So I did.
I sent a personal letter to 100 physicians.
I called the newspaper; and an article was published.
I was part of an educational video (from the study that diagnosed me).
I was part of a hospital article (from the study that diagnosed me).
I founded a local support group on my own and then joined hands with some amazing women and local dietitians and we created a two week gluten free survival menu guide.
I then joined hands with even more amazing women and co-founded a bi-state support group.
I dug in and I dug deep.
Life, as it does, in the middle of all this, changed directions in some other ways and I found myself back in school to get a degree in order to be able to support myself as a newly single woman and mom of three.
Something had to give, and that was the support group.
My time to <do something> may have been reduced, but it didn't mean my passion was.
It was during one of my drives home from school that a wonderful idea for a book came to mind. It sprung from the many parents I heard say, "my child's teacher doesn't understand," and "my child's grandparents don't understand." I credited my angels for the idea (that I jotted down for "later.")
Time went on.
I got that job (teaching prek-----and I LOVED it.)
I got married.
I moved (more than once).
And then I lost the job I loved and kept for three years (when major state budget issues caused many teachers to find themselves without classrooms.)
And I was devastated.
And then I pulled out that idea for a book I had.......and I figured it out.
Its now six years and three revisions later. Many great reviews.
Its job: to help the important adults in kids' lives understand enough to keep our kids who need to be gluten free safe and to understand enough to include them, (because no child should be left out).
But I lack. I lack in the ability to get it where it needs to be.
Blogging. I started in January 2012. Wow. I had great passion. I had a lot to say. I still have a lot to say. I still have a lot to offer. But I lack in the ability to get it "out there." I don't like losing passion. I don't want to lose passion. But I've had so many times when I felt I've given an effort all I had, just to have it still not be enough. And its disheartening when I see a post only reache 300 or 10 or 620. I shouldn't be. I always say, "if just one person is helped."
But I get frustrated.
I recently received a new review (on the girl version of the original Adam's Gluten Free Surprise). I always love reviews. But not this one. My view is and always has been for this book to help adults understand enough for our kids who need to be gluten free. So getting a 3 star review because it wasn't the book this particular person wanted, I was greatly disheartened. I shouldn't be; this is the nature of ----- anything. No one will please everyone all the time. But it tags onto my great frustration over the inability to get this book in the hands of all teachers who have students in their classrooms who need to be gluten free.
Yes, it bothers me.
The nice thing about having a "blog" is to have a place to write and to share my feelings (good, bad, or otherwise) and to know someone is listening....even if it just reaches a few.
So, if you are one of the 303 (or 30, or 3) people this may reach, thank you for listening.
Tomorrow will be a better day. I don't like my frustration over being unable to keep up with the special tricks of social networking to interfere with my blogging, sharing, and continued efforts to get my book in the hands of those whose understanding will benefit my favorite people: kids.
Hoping to get back that drive and to discover that way to see the light.
Thank you for listening.